Sunday, May 17, 2009
4:19 PM ●
- No one will realize even if I'm dead. I've tried to change, i want to show you that i can be a better person in life
but yet, you don't notice. I've tried to stop my notorious acts and defiant character,
all because i want to make you happy and yet,
you accused me for being a burden in your life, some one who has lack of responsibilities.
I've avoided many friends so that i can spend more time with you,
last year, i used to go out everyday, neglecting you, smoke and get caught by people,
thinking that it was nothing. Fight and sleep in class, causing numerous phone calls from school.
Refuse to study, thus causing my grade to plunge. I've never thought about how you feel,
i know it hurts for you people back then but this year,
i woke up from my stupid little dream. I tried to do all i can to make you smile,
i tried with all my might to make a total change in my life style, a total change in me
I want to make you proud, I've tried my best to focus on studies,
no longer the "gangster boy " i used to be.
i no longer have discipline records this year and i tried to keep it this way.
Yet you aren't seeing any of this happening in front of you cause,
you were not there when i tried to be a better person,
you were not there to watch the change in me.
And now I'm just a burden in your life. I'm causing all the problems in this family,
I'm the cause for everything. i tried to smile everyday,
thinking that one day my life will change for the better, but it's turning even bitter everyday.
Because, no one really understands who am i,
no one really knows what I'm hiding behind that crooked smile of mine.
and I guess, I'll slowly fade away from this cruel world and no one will notice my existence
|
about
ME !
CLIVE
Is the big name !
I am friendly,
but i bite sometimes.
This is my blog.
Respect it.
I'm the owner here so i set the rules, not you.
Leaving is easy just click the [X] Button on the top right hand corner of this web
Alt+F4 can also do the same thing, Thank you.
I Wanna Sing Like A RockStar, Be Like MovieStar, Play Like An All-Star And Fuck Like A Ponstar ! (:
----------
I'm not a average 16 year old kid alright,
I don't need your judgments here.
And for god sake, please leave your verdicts and indignant remarks to yourself,
If you can't accept the awful attitude of mine,
just leave, i won't hesitate to screw you.
On the contrary, I'm amicable (: so don't worry.
Basically, My life is occupied by sleeping and eating,
I will never try to abolish this habit because,
Consuming scrumptious meals are things we human should enjoy in life.
Which means, I'm being a glutton most of the time,
Last of all, I dream to be an ambidextrous [:
----------
She was oblivious of my admiration.
But I'm perpetually holding on because i'm unduly in love. ):
It is really hard to fathom the reason why humans are so mentally deranged in love
Just some mere assertion, Love is a word that's dominated by cheaters, players and heart breakers
And it's often spoken by fakers and liars.
People made me believe that promises are lies,
And so does "Forever". It doesn't subsist at all.
A heartbreaker's masquerade as a decent one
Actually, it all lies within one's individual perspective.
I have no due regards to constrain you to follow the way i think about love.
----------
Friendster.
----------
|
|
Sunday, May 17, 2009
4:19 PM ●
- No one will realize even if I'm dead. I've tried to change, i want to show you that i can be a better person in life
but yet, you don't notice. I've tried to stop my notorious acts and defiant character,
all because i want to make you happy and yet,
you accused me for being a burden in your life, some one who has lack of responsibilities.
I've avoided many friends so that i can spend more time with you,
last year, i used to go out everyday, neglecting you, smoke and get caught by people,
thinking that it was nothing. Fight and sleep in class, causing numerous phone calls from school.
Refuse to study, thus causing my grade to plunge. I've never thought about how you feel,
i know it hurts for you people back then but this year,
i woke up from my stupid little dream. I tried to do all i can to make you smile,
i tried with all my might to make a total change in my life style, a total change in me
I want to make you proud, I've tried my best to focus on studies,
no longer the "gangster boy " i used to be.
i no longer have discipline records this year and i tried to keep it this way.
Yet you aren't seeing any of this happening in front of you cause,
you were not there when i tried to be a better person,
you were not there to watch the change in me.
And now I'm just a burden in your life. I'm causing all the problems in this family,
I'm the cause for everything. i tried to smile everyday,
thinking that one day my life will change for the better, but it's turning even bitter everyday.
Because, no one really understands who am i,
no one really knows what I'm hiding behind that crooked smile of mine.
and I guess, I'll slowly fade away from this cruel world and no one will notice my existence
|
